Endorphin rush!! I feel like a million bucks! I have worked out three times this week and I am already hooked on the rush I get after working out, particularly Body Pump. I intend to go to Body Pump three times a week. It combines weights with cardio and you work out every major muscle group in one hour. I have taken it on and off for the last 7 years and I love it. I have no idea why if missing a couple of classes in a row it is so hard to go back but I have a real problem with going really well for two months and then disappearing for a few weeks. I build muscle really fast and I swear I can feel results after only two classes, not major changes but changes all the same.
Tuesday's, Thursday's and Saturday's are my cardio days and so this week I decided to try a Turbo Kick class. Turbo Kick is not for me due to all of the dancey dance moves it has. Katie was teaching and I have had her before as an aerobic instructor and I just don't click very well with her style of teaching. True, I could stick with it but I do not like the "stumble around like a moron" part of it besides there are a lot of squats throughout the class and my knees get enough squats in Body Pump. It is back to the elliptical for me.
Last week I went to Kohl's in a tank top and shorts I felt awful and chunky. Every time I would catch my reflection I would re-adjust something. I could not even relax for feeling sorry for myself and how I look. I want to change this. I want to be strong confident and comfortable in my own skin. This week on my weekly trip to wander around Kohl's I was wearing my workout pants, exercise bra and a tank top and I felt way better about myself from just a few days of exercise and eating well.
I hate back fat. I remember as a little girl in my little summer dress obsessing over whether or not my back looked fat. My mission when I shop is to find anything that will make my back look nice and smooth. There is a certain kind of fabric that makes me cringe. I adjust my bra all the time careful to keep it in the most flattering place on my back as if makes all that huge of a difference. My back is not my only issue I have many but my back is by far the worst.
I gain weight everywhere and I mean everywhere, my feet, my toes, my hands and especially my face. I envy "skinny faced" people who no matter how much weight they gain their faces look the same. If I gain one pound it seems like one ounce goes to my face. My favorite pictures are ones that I look more angular. I my favorite thing about looking at pictures of myself when I am fit is how thin my face looks. Am I am mess or what?
I have been eating super healthy this week. I have been trying to look at food more as fuel. Before eating I look at the impact it will have on me and how long it will satisfy me. I try to avoid things that do nothing positive for me, such as diet coke. I love diet coke, not for the diet properties of it but I love the taste. I love to go to McDonalds and get a large diet coke every other day or so. I am trying to give it up and it is hard from time to time. I had lunch with a friend of mine today and I had a really hard time getting iced tea rather than Diet Coke. There are articles out there that say Diet drinks actually hinder weight loss. We will see how long this lasts...I have had to give up every other damn vise I have, why can't I keep just the one vice?
When I was working in Boulder, where people (for the most part) are uber healthy I met a couple in their 70's and they were going bicycling through Italy for 6 weeks. That is the kind of person I want to be and that is what I am striving for...that and looking hot in a bikini.
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